It Begins

you opened yourself to me
showed me vulnerability
asked me to be your girlfriend
caught off guard
wanting the same
you know all the right things to say
go to the calendar
draw a line through each day
until a month from now
thats how long we'll date
and then decide if we want to move in together
because you need out
and I need to pay my loan
I can give you what you need
respect and admiration
intimacy, touch
but can I trust you?

Crush

begins as physical attraction
almost always immediately
out of control
I see the inner being of their eyes
try to stop staring
their smile and laugh the clincher
my heart is gone
before I even know their name
fascinated, studying
try to control the uncontrollable
how should I act, what should I do
over-analyze everything

this is not love
love is giving
enjoying companionship without expectations
giving it time to grow
trust is the surrender of control