It Stops

this is familiar
i've been here before
funny
i promised myself
i'd never go back
yet here i am
nothing is changed
and i'm cold and lonely
starving
feeling like nothing to you
don't you want me
i did it again
i poisoned you with love
you're sick of me already
cold and distant
as i move closer you push away
used up
forgotton
i smile and say fine
i laugh and say ok
i pretend everything is normal
i try to convince myself all these pacifying lies
you act like you don't even want to see me
you fill my mind with awful thoughts
of your infedelity
i want to run away
i am so afraid
dont tell me damn it
don't let my imagination take hold and begin this decline
when thinking of you
my heart clenches in pain
i wish what you said was real
i wish you didn't take back your words
you broke my heart
i'm still crying over you
even though i knew this would happen
predicted in my sleep
i got what i wanted
was it too good to last